What Have I Done?

What have I done?
I did what you asked, I think I did…
I help my family.
I clothe them, I feed them and I go to work
I put in hard time and dedication to make this family strong
I Give my kids what they want
And what they need.
I Support my husband through everything
Ups, downs, Good times and bad times
What have I done?

I tried talking to them,
What do you need? How was your day? Are you hungry? Can I fix you something?
Sharing my feelings to make this
Family work
But, it seems like everytime I offer MY help,
They don’t need it.
Oh, but let me try take a little ME time
They’ll call my name
Before I call theirs.
Many times, I still wonder
What have I done?

A prophet told me that you said
I was rushing you, not waiting for you, I’m not being patient.
Like I don’t have faith in you…
That I needed to wait? Oh, Wait?! because
You have sooooo many blessings for me?!
Where are they? What I have done to deserve your blessings?

So Lord is this why I can’t
Communicate with my family?
Is this why my mother and I
Can’t get along? Am I rushing you Lord?
Do I not have patience?
Tell me, Speak to me, help me, teach me, and use me.
What have I done?

What have I done?
I’ve been hanging on this ladder for
The longest time
and it seems like I just
can’t reach the top.
But, I KNOW, I know you have bigger blessings for me
What have I done?
I’ve prayed, I’ve stood on your word
Kept the faith and been patient
What have I done?
I’ve done your will and your way
That’s what I have done!!