I don't know what love is...or so I thought
I think I have a clue what it is but then again idk
He has really brought out feelings that I didn't know I had
And he has the same feelings
I was told that it wasn't love, I was just in like
But how would they know they're not in love
So what maybe I wouldn't jump in front
Of a train for him
There aren't too many people that I would do it for
Including my family
(call me selfish I don't care)
I just want to run its course
And see if I will be happy
I just wanna see what will happen
Let me just make my mistake & learn from it
And if I did make a mistake i'll
Know that I can move on
And not wonder what if
I dont wanna keep wondering "what if"
...well I guess I will leave it alone
...aint no use in crying over spilt milk

Don't trip...He's not done with me yet

I have come to a point where I feel that I have drifted from God
I may possibly have the feeling that I don't need Him as much
But because of this disconnection I have been feeling unhappy
I feel that in order to be happy again I must reconnect with God

I can't wait to start school agian, that's when I'm closet to Him
I'll call Him everyday, with any problem I have
I know I need to clear my life w/ unwanted baggage *coughs*
(I won't say any names)
I am willing to "give myself away, so He can use me"
Mentally, Emotionally, Physically, & Spiritually

All I know is He's not through with me yet
Whatever happens I know that God has my back
It is time for me to grow up & make some wise decisions
Only then will I be truely free of the ties that bond me

I would like to thank the special people in my life
that have gave me the advice and comfort I need
They say the best things in life aint,
That's why I'm glad I have friends who make them free

Dear God

Dear God,

I need for you to pull through for me this summer
I have big things plan and things to accomplish
I believe you will come on time when I least expect it
First off, I need for these final grades to be on point....In the name of Jesus
Second, I need for me to be able to register for summer school...In the name of Jesus
Thrid, I need to get this job at Cato's...In the name of Jesus
And, fourth, I want my 20th birthday to be the BOMB...In the name of Jesus

That is all, you know the needs and wants of my heart
I Love You Jesus. I ask these and many other blessings
In the name of Jesus,
Amen.


P.S. I want to find a summer love :)
In the name of Jesus,
Amen

Home Again...Finally

So I'm home again...finally
It's been a long time coming
Even though I know my family
Will get my nerves soon enough
Still have to love them :)

Well off to start my summer
Have a good one thre3.6.5ive
LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!

Ignorance ain't Bliss

I think I have come to the point where some things are ignorant and I can't change a person for how they think, the only I can change is how I associate with them.
The small comments and clueless gestures aren't cute anymore
The fake hardcore you trying to live isn't cute anymore
Having your mindset as a "fcuk u" attitude isn't cool anymore
Damn grow up and be an adult, leave that shit in the past
God did not create incidents for you to say "fcuk u"
You are basically giving a nonchalant attitude to the works of God

I turned off the TV because I couldn't take it anymore
I tried to deal with it so I can be cool with my companions
But enough is enough, I guess I am at the point where I don't see
Anything through the eyes of a little kid or simple-minded teenagers
I have held my toungue and kept my thoughts to myself
And I will continue to do because you can't change Ignorance and
I will not let ignorance change me

Just believe me when I say, you will understand what I say when your time comes
that the people around you will change and you will know that Ignorance Ain't Bliss

Back from the Future

I was shown how my future will turn out
CEO, 6 figure salary, and a dope ride
I had no worries, I had no fears
I had no heartaches, I had no cares

I was walking in the path
That leads to righteousness
I was the disciple that brought
all those closer to thee

I was at rest with my soul
And at rest with the world
I knew what was needed of me
And I fulfilled my duties

It took me years to get where
I am suppose to be
It took heartahces and pain
To learn what is real and what is not
To learn who is there for me and who is not

I turned my "tests" into "testimonies"
And my faith was turned into favor

But now that I am back from the future
I understand what it will take
I understand that there will ups and downs
And I understand that He will not leave me

As I continue to struggle to do what it right
I will always find my way back to His footprints
For I know that He will carry me Back To The Future

Short stories or Novels

Some people live short stories, and some live long novels
Whether you are on earth for a short time or until you are 80
Make your life story worth while
Each year is a new chapter of your life
Another adventure that lasted for thre3.6.5ive

The time has come to turn the page in my chapter
2009-2010 has definitely been an experience
my first year of college= my first year of independence
I have taken a stepping stone towards CEO
A stepping stone towards adulthood

Until next time please remember me
destiny.compassion.divinity